I’m in this picture except I still love school, I just hate inequality and how capitalism has forced schools to become job training factories.
Thats me but was diagnosed and sent to a prison of a school for being bullied and running away. Hope that bully grew up to die in a ditch.
Wow wtf that’s suspiciously accurate
buuuuuuut
Modern school is designed to stamp out creativity, compassion, maturity, courage, and critical thinking. It is designed to produce a worker class that is easier to suppress, bully, intimidate, and fool. It accomplishes that goal with ruthless efficiency. Don’t trust me, check out John Gatto, NYC teacher of the year. https://www.cantrip.org/gatto.html
That was a delightful little link. For a moment I was alive in the nineties.
The arrival linked was also very interesting.
I’m wondering how these things are connected in the brain to cause this specific mental state to be so widespread, it feels like a lightning rod
50% upbringing, 50% genetics
this deep longing I’ve felt my entire life, I was meant to exist in a different, inhuman world
but I am here and I am drowning
update: I wrote this at 2 am when I was half asleep
It’s going bad, thanks!
I mystified as to how bisexuality fits into all this.
Well, I’m on year 12 of my bachelor’s degree and I’m unfortunately not bi. So, not great?
Unfortunately
Your phrasing seems to imply you’d like to be, have you tried?
Well, looking at masc people doesn’t give me the happy feelings like looking at fem people. That isn’t to say that I necessarily wouldn’t enjoy sex with masc people, but I’m not attracted to them.
hey, it took me 7 and i tried 8 different majors. i only left because at year 5 i hated the school and picked the fastest degree to get me out of there. my wife took longer than me. you’ll get there.
I’ve known my major since 6th grade. Never swayed. I do intend to get there, though, come Hell or high water. It’ll look better on a refugee application.
I managed in 6 years, if I include the associate’s degree I got to fix the 2.5 wasted years. And I think going as to undergrad at 18 should be seen as precocious. Backpack around a bit and learn who you are as an independent adult.
Or you might discover you have a lot of unresolved trauma and fall into depressive states easily in the middle of a semester.
Probably not just a “me” thing.
I’m not bi?
I don’t know if I should feel better or worse knowing that I’m a whole ass archetype.
Yeah right make a post about being smart and gay and suddenly everyone can relate
I was gifted Harry Potter 1 on my first school day and had read it through by the next morning. Fast forward to now: I haven‘t read an actual book in 2 years, too burned out by ADHD. Fuck me I guess!
Edit: also, fuck the school system.
Not bi, and I was never in the gifted program.
But I found out I’m neurodivergent at 39, and it explains so much.
I hope everyone is doing well. Seems that my story echos many of yours.
The school system yes but also the problem is much deeper, as capitalism is a hell system that grinds away at human joy, stifles personal growth, and recontextualizes all genuine passion towards evil. In this essay I will-
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