The specific feeling of wanting to be anywhere but here, but not dying. I want to stop existing, but dying is too much. I want to be nothing. To evaporate. Idk how to explain it.

Look, anybody can open a bag of chips. I could just clamp down and rip it to shreds without a second thought. I want to open the bag without exploding the contents. So I pull just a little. And I struggle to find the point that it gives without losing control. I want a word for the tiny struggle.

It’s slow. It’s controlled, methodical, purposeful, patient, delicate, but it is not weakness. I think that deserves a word.

In English: multiple words for what we simply call “love”. It encompasses many different feelings.

The unease of being watched while doing something (whether a job, a hobby, or a chore).

Since OP didn’t specify whether the word already existed or not, my answer is:

Defenestration

For context, I’m reading this on the can.

I want a word for taking an immensely satisfying dump. The kind where you can just sit down and in a short period of time with minimal effort just drop one large single uninterrupted turd, no splash, and don’t feel the need to squeeze out anything else.

Then this word can be casually applied to other tasks. Like pulling a trash bag out of the garbage can by the drawstrings in one simple motion without having to shimmy it out and it doesn’t even slightly move the trash can or liner. Or when you’re doing laundry, have a balled up sock and whipping it one in the air it becomes completely unbunched up in the right direction.

Pride?

I recommend The Meaning of Liff

The Dictionary of Obscure Sorrows

For me most of all: Ballagàrraidh: The Awareness That You Are Not at Home in the Wilderness.

The feeling you get when realizing your life is too short to watch every single movie or show or listen to every single song.

Just found a word I didn’t know existed, sharting, shitting yourself while farting…

Losing the will to do something when someone tells you to do it

Stockholm syndrome variant