Well I remember my friend’s grandfather. He was over 90 and he was having health problems. They were taking him to emergency even though he didn’t wanted. One day I helped him out of the car after another emergency visit, asked him how he is… He spit on the ground and said “I couldn’t fucking die today either!”. I was young so, it was weird for me. After all these years I understand him now. I’m not a believer but I hope he is resting in peace.